MULTIPLE EMOTIONS. To experience loss is to experience a cosmic collision of emotions, raining down like shrapnel from the ether, striking at our vulnerability.
However, the loss is so rich with a rainbow firework. It enriches all aspects of reality, even if some facets are overwhelmed. The Lord gives and takes away, yet even in the taking away a great deal of experience is given.
One hundred days since you passed,
And these feelings of unknowing,
They prevail; they last.
You’ve had such an impact
About your mother and me
In your sisters and family,
We look at the sky.
It’s not funny?
as time tarnishes the bread,
With reality immutable,
You may feel crazy.
vulnerable little fingers,
Little unused toes
You will always be beautiful
Heaven knows best.
Although there is healing:
The knowledge of the Lord,
There is still the strange feeling:
How they adore you!
Thanks god,
For what we had
No matter what we’ve lost,
No matter how sad.
Life goes on now
without you between us,
It’s just your memory
Within our fist.
will follow,
However, we will never forget,
Just like you changed us
Just like you did the freight for us.
Our wrong is our possession,
And gladly we hold on,
What we appreciate,
That can never be sold.
It makes us who we are
and unites us
You are like glue
You have made love stick more.
We love your body
And I held you a lot
Even in those days
You made us feel strong.
The days since then do not moisten,
what we feel for you,
for what you have given us,
Will we ever close as true.
God gave you to us
So we could see
how transformative,
The loss can really be.
what you have taught us,
It’s obviously real
without you we are better
Because we can only feel.
So show us fresh,
This light sustained by God,
help us understand
How to live by faith, not by sight.
Take us inside
to your eternal home
When it’s our time,
To see the golden path of God.
We imagine our welcome,
Upon entering the kingdom of heaven,
You there to meet us
Holding our helm.
We will always be,
All back together
Up there with God
Light as a feather.
Oh what a thought
Oh how can we wait
anticipating what is coming,
Because destiny is never late.
So wait there sweet child
I know how you are
be there in peace
Even as a star.
© 2015 SJ Wickham.